Now......!!

You know how it is....

you're talking with a friend and suddenly.......

at the furthest corner of your mind....comes 

a 

Wisp of Remembrance.

It curls itself

slowly around the corner of your thoughts

like the delicate tendrils of a sweet pea

half remembered....

almost like the ghost of a half remembered dream....

and....

while you are still talking

your mind tries to tease the verse to give away a little more of itself 

so that you can see whether it really does apply!

Having fluttered in your memory

the few fragments of words are loath to expose themselves further to the light of day

and shyly

flirt with your memory

until you say something like...

"Do you remember this verse.......?"

At this point

and because you're not sure whether

you've 'got it right'.....

you're taking a chance.........

This is what happened to me a few weeks ago...

I can't even remember the occasion....

but I do remember the verse

because

I finally nailed it and was able to look it up...

since then I've thought about it a lot...

It was "IF"

(by Rudyard Kipling)

and the little fragment that 

seemed to mean such a lot.....

and which I have tried to think and live in these

last few weeks

is

"If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds' worth of distance run

Yours is the earth and all that's in it,"

I feel that.... with this post...

I'm taking a chance with you , my blogging friends...

as I am not showing you........ 

my glorious Pembrokeshire

nor am I sharing...

the china that I love to use....

This time I am opening up............ 

and sharing some of myself!!

These last few months 

as I have become more housebound

I have started to ask myself

'how fulfilling is my life?'

As a counsellor

both during my training

 and when I was training others

I used the Myers/Briggs Personality Types

to enable people to discover more about themselves

and also, when they were trained,

about their clients

Last summer

as part of a team building exercise

we used it again

and this time I was on the receiving end.

This time I took it, not as I can or could be.......

......but as I am now.

I knew I was really an introvert 

but could make myself

be extroverted

Now I decided to look at who I really am

and what I need out of life

right now

As the poem says...

"If you can dream..and not make dreams your master

If you can think..and not make thoughts your aim"

As I am here at home these days...

I am starting to dream again

and get in touch with what I need ....

and what pleases me.

I've been given these flowers I've shown above.. 

and really enjoy having them in the house

they touch something deep within..

Something to do with

Filling " the unforgiving minute"

Stopping to really look and allow their beauty

to touch a needy place within...

As I arranged them in the vase one broke off

so I found a little vase and went

into the garden

to find a little greenery

to go with it

as I cut a little Pittosporum

and a touch of the Winter Jasmine

I loved its colour against the deep red of the rose

I paused.....

in the winter sunshine......

and thought...

"What is this feeling

that I have

in this minute 

as I enjoy the crispness of a frosty day

the warmth of the winter sunshine

and the birds playing at their feeders....

and I realised.....

It was....

HAPPINESS!!