Saturday, 19 July 2014

Pink!!






Yes
I know that my Title is 'Pink'
and this is a blue flower.

I just wanted to share my thoughts
on the fact that
we determine what is going to happen
or we think...
by a word or chance remark
and then...
perhaps go on our own bunny trail.....
so
we get thrown
and question why ...what..?



I've been unable to spend time in the garden
as I would like........
..and, suddenly,.. 
as I looked out of the sun room window....
I realised that practically all the plants 
in my patio garden
are pink!!


The old pergola 
is showing a lot of signs of age
(like me....I sigh)
and the winter storms
have pushed it over at a frightening degree!


I do love to look out and see the flowers
it just brightens up the day!



To get back to expectations...
how hard do you find it
to change the train of thought that
a word or an incident starts off..




...??



For me...something can trigger
a train of thought
that might be nothing like the other person intended
as they started to speak...
but I ...
have gone off on a totally different track
and it can be hard then
to see what the other person meant!




My physio said that the back pain.. 
may never get better....
and I was immediately
going back down the tunnel of despair.

He said we won't know for another 12-18 months
how bad....or good....
it is going to end up!
I asked 
"Why the fusion of the 4 vertebra then?"
He said that
the collapse of my vertebra
could have got so bad
that I might have ended up in a wheelchair


I immediately latched onto the negative
and started down the winding trail..
but...
on reflection..
there's a lot of positive 
in what he says..
and I have to relearn
to pick up the positive and stand on that!



Talking of expectations ...
and looking at things in certain ways...

The flowers I have shown have all been
pink
and taken...
whilst I have been standing with my back to the house
looking at the patio....

When I turn around 180*s.....
look what I can see...



BLUE

While I had been thinking all is pink...
when I changed direction...
there was blue!
and...
this little agapanthus
is very special to me as...
when my mother and I went to Madeira
it must be nearly 20 years ago...
we went on a trip right up into the mountains..
and there were farmers selling the plants.

Mum and I bought a few...
I gave some to my daughters...
and planted some...
in my garden.
They became overgrown with weeds and brambles
and I thought I'd lost them...
until...
a couple of years ago..
hubby was clearing the area for his new tool shed
when he said....
"This is a strange weed"

I couldn't believe it...and rushed to put it in a pot...
where it's stayed until...
a couple of weeks ago I saw signs
that it was going to flower..

Voila!!!




Perhaps
there's a lesson for me there....
to not hear the beginning
without hearing the end....
but also..
not to go down the same old road...but....
to turn right around and look for...
the unexpected...
the signs of hope and change...
that perhaps I will be able to regain 
some of my old life...
and do...
some of the things..
that I used to do and enjoy before!

Sorry about all of this..
but it spoke so powerfully to me!


I couldn't finish without showing you
what happened last week..


as you know
I planted all the trees and shrubs etc 
when we built our house.
These last few years
I have been unable to do any weeding etc



and it has really upset me
especially this big border by the wall.

Then
a team of young people from a church in Aberystwyth
came to our area for a week...
to hold tent meetings
for the community
and they also



offered to help weed gardens of those who were having difficulty in doing
all sorts of other hard to do jobs!

I so wish I had taken 'before' pictures
but
perhaps from the mounds of weeds
you'll get the idea!!??



I am just so grateful to them....
It has really cheered me up....
In fact...
the other afternoon.....
I was so busy looking at my lovely new border
that...
I nearly drove into the wall of the house!
True!!



What a great way
of showing God's love...
through serving people without expecting
anything more than thanks!

The other good thing is 
that part of the garden has been tidied up
to celebrate my mother's visit.

She is hoping to come at the beginning of August
to celebrate her 94th birthday
with the family in Wales
She is much fitter than I am
so I expect
I will be able to twist her arm
to do a guest post 
as she has done these last couple of years!




Perhaps if you ask nicely......
(She reads my blog)
so you can ask her yourself

Thanks for allowing me to take you 
around the ideas that seem to be filling my thoughts!











Tuesday, 24 June 2014

Freedom!!






I saw the consultants
last week and...
they are both delighted with my progress



As for the pain in my back.....
I'm told it may never go....



I won't know..
how good..or bad
it will be..
for at least another...
12-18 months!




The good news is...
that the fusion seems to be working and
the bone grafts are taking...
so that should stabilize my spine..
against any more slippages!!



AND!!!!!
I'm aloud to DRIVE AGAIN!!!!
Short distances for now....
and I have to say
it's still very painful trying to move my legs...
and the muscles have degenerated
so that sometimes, I have to physically
lift them ...by hand...sort of..
so I won't be tempted to drive too far.




BUT
I can get out without having to bother
any of my wonderful friends
who have stood by me
on those many non-driving times
over these last six and half years!!



Actually...
I'll let you into a secret.....




Now that I CAN drive....and go out
I don't particularly WANT to!!




Isn't that typical?!

I wonder whether you have found yourself
thinking just the same thing?



Do You know....?
I just love to chat to you like this...
while we meander
around this beautiful garden.

It's one I can easily manage on the crutches
that I'm told I'll be using for some time.
So I can concentrate totally
on all the interesting things...
that you're sharing!



It's one of my favourites places..
and I know I've brought you here before
But...
every time I come...
I'm struck by something different....




something that takes my breath away...
and it's soooo good
to share it with you.....thank you!



Again....I have brought you
to the walled garden at Picton Castle




The flowers are just so beautiful
at this time of year



It seems to go from one...
"OH, just look at this...to the next"!!




One of the many things...
 that I love about this garden
is the change in shapes and texture
where ever you look..
Strong and tall
against



sweet and delicate!



Paper thin poppies
against


strident succulents!


The contrasts....
The beautiful blue sky
and 
the red....red...roses!


I so enjoy this place
and really hope you do too?



At this time of the year...
some local villages
have 'open gardens'...
when some of the homes open their gardens
to raise money for charity.
I love going to these
...and...
last weekend we went to one
near my daughter's home.
We called in for a cup of tea and
sat in the garden
relaxing whilst
the children played...
Suddenly my daughter said...
"You've got a butterfly on your sunhat, Mum"

Now...
I HATE having my photo taken
and I had no makeup
or any idea of what I looked like
when I crammed my sunhat on....
but....
I just felt I had to show you these photos...
that is...
only if you promise not to laugh...
or...
make comments...like...
'the camera doesn't lie...'



Plus
I had to stay really still
so it didn't fly way



Worth it though!!








Monday, 2 June 2014

Feeling Better!





My dear blogging friends
A very big THANK YOU......
for all the kind thoughts and messages..
winging their way across
land and ocean.

I so appreciate each one of you!



As we walk and talk together
I just wanted to take you to one of my
favourite places.....
a garden centre and nursery
that also has two restaurants.....
one with a decking overlooking the gardens
and ponds.


I've brought you here before
but I come again and again .....
so I hope that you will keep enjoying it with me!



My friends have brought me here
several times over these last weeks....
just before my op...
and certainly since I had it four weeks ago.



The food is excellent...
and the peace and tranquility...
just quieten your soul!




Hold on a minute.....
Now what can those be?
I haven't seen them before......



No, I really don't know what it is!!

This is my wonderful friend (who has really kept my spirits up by taking me out every few days....)
investigating this flower for me...
how far does friendship go??



I still don't know what it is!!

We walk to our favourite place to sit and enjoy
the peace and tranquility...
and always...
breathe a sigh of relief....
 when we find that..
nobody else has taken..
what we consider 'our place'!!



From here
there's a lovely view of the ponds



and in the other direction....



and look at all those fish.....!
We love to sit and watch them jump
on a lazy summer afternoon



I find it a wonderful place
to be at peace...
but others
have a different agenda.....!!



now....what can he see...?






Those darn fish......
probably!




The operation went well and people
are saying that they can see 
that the pain has gone from my face.
I am also told by so many
that I'm walking straighter......
I am just so grateful.

It's been a long six and half years
of being in wheelchairs, on crutches 
and in so much pain.......and
operation after operation.

I do so hope that
this will be the last and that I will be able
to cast aside these crutches
(I have been told I will be on them for a while longer)
and be able to go on my favourite
coastpath walks
and be free to do so many things.

It's true
You don't value things until you loose them!!
I enjoyed the walks...
and the holidays abroad...but..
in a way
took it all fore-granted!

I think (hope)
that I have been learning....
not to rush hither and thither....
To not fill my days so full..
and feel pleased when I have been able to slot
yet another 'important' thing in.

To take time and enjoy
the beauty that is all around me...
the friends that have rallied around...
and unselfishly helped me.

I learnt to blog during this time...
and have made so many friends all over the world.
Thank you all.... 
for supporting me through....
 ....my highs..
and lows!



It's been a like
a series of stepping stones....
each one bringing
a new view of life....
or a new thing to learn.....

Through you all and your craft stories and pictures
I learnt to crochet...
( I have just finished I pram cover for a friend's grandchild)

I already knitted a lot
but I've learnt to be more adventurous
and have even joined a Knit a Long!!


I've had the wool for 3 weeks
but haven't yet started!!
I am awful to start things....
I keep putting it off.
Afraid of getting it wrong....I expect!
I love the colours of the pattern


but unfortunately
they don't suit me so I bought these...


Lastly....




Someone else who enjoys the gardens!!