I just had to share these beautiful flowers!
They were supposed to have been delivered
but instead, as I was in hospital,
the florist delayed bringing them so that I could have some lovely spring flowers ...
...when I arrived home!
It seems that every time I look at them
I see another little flower
and it so delights me!
I am continuing to improve.........
after my last stay in hospital
but I have to go to Swansea (60 miles away)
to see the spinal consultant
about the next stage...
of my journey into (hopefully) painless living!
It is 5 years this Saturday
since this all started
and I would like to get some sort of life again!
I have learnt so much
through all of this..
mainly about myself .....
and some of the things I've learnt I haven't liked!
I'm not saying that I'm a saint...
I have whinged and felt very sorry for myself!
but these times of not being able to go out...
of having to let others
do the things I used to do so easily...
because I can no longer manage...
Of having others do things differently
from the way I like to do it...
I suppose I'm talking about.....
no longer being in control??!!
It has been so difficult...
and, yes, I've grieved over losing my ability to go and walk our glorious coastal paths....
(why on earth didn't I do it more....
appreciate it more..
while I could)
I've grieved over people not listening
to what I have asked them to do
the plants that I had spent years training
over the wall....
but...through all this...
I hope that I am emerging a better person
who is not so full of herself
and her abilities
but is able
to know herself and her needs more fully
and, I hope,
be more aware of others and their needs.
I know that I spend more time
in the moment....
just enjoying where I am and what I have
now that I am not rushing here
There is so much to see and enjoy
This is the moon yesterday morning
I just thought it looked lovely!
I'm sorry that I seem to have rambled a bit
but that is just where I am today
I hope that
wherever you are
is just where you need to be today!!