When I awoke the other morning
there was a glorious
Rainbow
outside my window.....
so I did as all bloggers seem to do.....
and grabbed my camera!
How I wish I had a wider lens so
I could capture the whole!
I loved the double rainbow
that seemed to highlight the local houses
The raindrops on the lens
still don't seem to spoil the picture!
I was thinking of the song from 'The Wizard of Oz'
'Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
and the dreams that you dare to dream
really do come true'
So many of my 'dreams' have come to a grinding halt
and I find myself afraid to dream
in case they just don't happen..........
in fact, if I'm truly honest, I have spent so much time
in a 'waiting for the next op'
frame of mind
that I don't know what to dream anyway!!
Sorry if this is an uncomfortable post but I wonder how many who read this have had to put their dreams on hold for so long that they can't remember or don't know how to dream again?
I know that I'm afraid to try........
.....I just don't know what to dream
One thing I'm desperate to do is go 200 miles
to see my mother
whom I haven't seen
since her 92nd birthday in August!
I usually try to drive and see her every other month
They have only just allowed me to drive
but only as far as our local town!
There are no easy trains or buses!
I would need some way
where I can stop, get out and move around
I have tossed so many ideas around in my mind.
My daughter said yesterday
that she will try to take me ...... she has a full life
with family and many other committments
so I don't know how she can 'fit it in'!
I used to be driving everywhere and so independent!
This life is so different and difficult!!
Would you say seeing Mum is a dream...?
In fact, now I come to think about it,
what is a dream?
'Someday I'll wish upon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me'
Wouldn't that be a nice place to be?......
Oh I so wish I lived closer I would truly drive you. Let your daughter take you if she can I am sure she would love the time with you and her Grandmother.
ReplyDeleteNEVER stop dreaming that is truly the only thing that gets me out of bed some mornings and I am sure there are lots of rainbows in your future I am almost positive of that. HUGS my friend. B
So I forgot to ask do you drive on the right like us in Canada or the left because that may be a problem for me but I would try it and you can just keep reminding me:) Hugs B
ReplyDeleteOh I hear you loud and clear. I think many of us face the same thing for lots of different reasons. If I lived closer I would drive you myself and we would make a fun day of it. Is there a student that lives near you that would like to make a little money? You could pay them for the day, it could be a win/win situation for both of you. How about a retired person form a local church?
ReplyDeleteDon't stop dreaming, I think dreams really keep us alive and looking forward to the future. I know that is hard when you are not feeling well, but try.
I am so glad you honor us with you honest posts. So many blogs present such a perfect life. I would much rather read an honest blog where I can relate and develop a relationship.
I am sending you positive thoughts for health and dreams.
Meredith
Oh bless you ... hope it all works out for you.
ReplyDeleteHold on to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly
Claire xxx
What spectacular pictures. I will be praying that God will make a way for you to visit your Mum.
ReplyDeleteMy husband became disabled and has not driven since he was 50. My mom lost her sight when she was 27 and had 3 children to raise. Many trials, twists and turns but God has blessed us all in different ways.
I am thankful God showed you this beautiful rainbow to share with us.
The pictures are wonderful Joan.
ReplyDeleteI know what it is to have major health problems making it hard for me to go where I want and do thing alone.
I hope things get better for you and you are able to visit your mother.
Hugs,
Beth
Oh-I am so sorry, Joan. It is so hard, isn't it, when our life condition holds us back from being all we want to be? I am so sorry you aren't able to get to see your Mum. I hope you can at least ring her up and chat with her.
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you-praying that your dreams are restored...and that your dreams become realities for you- Blessings- xo Diana
What a beautiful rainbow and it does give us hope. I think visiting your Mother is a good dream. I also dream of visiting family some day soon. Our lives get busy and hard and we don't take time to dream. Thanks for this reminder. Sweet hugs to you my friend!
ReplyDeleteI would drive you but I don't think that this is what you really want. Your lament is more, "what once was, just isn't like it is." The freedom of taking off and going/doing what you want is very different today. Independent has changed to dependent.
ReplyDeleteYesterday I was on an outing with a friend whose mom was with us. Recently she had to stop driving because of her eyesight and she was lamenting how much she misses her independence. I understood that in a new way when physically you are unable to be independent yet your mind is so physically capable of independence. Kind of like what you are experiencing I think . . . isn't it? How does one bridge the emotional feeling from "what was to what is?"
Not sure if I have the answers other than thinking it is good to "voice" your wishes and dreams to us and others, for those feelings to find new ways of happiness, hope, comfort and joy. The grief that comes from the physical injury such as you have endured is much more than the physical change it has brought to you.
I wish I was near . . . to at the very least listen and be with you.
I wonder if creating a new dream, a new plan of "what, how, when" could be energy building for you. Just wondering . . .
Love the rainbow. I think it is always special to see a full arch rainbow.
ReplyDeleteI still try to have dreams, but I must admit it gets harder as I get older. I have begun to realize that so many dreams never come true. Seeing your mother sounds like an attainable goal, though. I hope your daughter is able to take you. What a treat that will be for your mother -- to see both of you. Best of luck, dear. Try to keep dreaming.
Dear Joan, I have always loved that song and of course your rainbow looks beautiful. So thankful you had it when you woke up. I understand how unfulfilled dreams can really hurt and how often we put up walls so we won't be disappointed again. I sure have. I'm sorry you aren't able to drive to see your mom. I will be praying that somehow you will get there. Giving up our independence and driving has got to be one of the most difficult things with getting older. My daughter's mil has bone cancer and can't come out for Thanksgiving or Christmas and I know that this must be crushing her spirit. We need to cherish every day and the ability we have right now because it could be gone tomorrow. Gentle hugs to you today.
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Hi Joan.. love the double rainbow! Don't ever give up your dreams! Can't your husband drive you to see your mom? You need to get there.. at her age, you need to see her often. My mom is gone I could only wish to be able to go see her once more. ((hugs)), Teresa :-)
ReplyDeleteThe rainbows are gorgeous! I haven't seen one, other than in a photo, for years.
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean about dreaming. I had to give it up a long time ago, for reality and I'm not sure how to get it back. I used to look forward to my sleep dreaming, to fill the gap and now I can't even remember those, either.
Hope you are able to visit your Mom. I wish mine was still around, I miss her.
Wow, a double rainbow, beautiful.
ReplyDeleteOne day a dream will hit you and you'll be able to go chasing it - just as you are!
Hope you get to see your Mum soon.
Blessings,
Diana
A dream is a wish our heart makes. So says Disney. Dream is hope, hope is joy....don't give up your joy. If you need to visit your mom ,maybe you could hire a driver. One willing to stop and let you rest and stretch your legs. When you get to your mom's hug her for all of us. I will pray for you. xoxo, Susie
ReplyDeleteBeautiful rainbows! If I were nearby, I would gladly take you to visit your mother! Keep dreaming! If you can dream it, you can make it so! A quote from someone whose name escapes me at this point.
ReplyDeleteKeep dreaming those dreams, old and new. I KNOW they can come true.
ReplyDeleteI love your photos! I am so glad you will get to see your mom! Have a great day and thanks for the inspirational post.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful rainbow! Dreams....I have a theory. If they are not easy to attain, they are not worth fretting over. I had many dreams when I was young, but life got in the way and none of them ever really panned out. So now I just count my blessings and forget about the dreams I never attained. They weren't meant to be. Life is for living, not for dreaming, although a daydream or two can't hurt. You can make your visit to your Mother happen. Don't limit yourself by giving up. Think creatively and ask for help. Insist. You owe it to yourself. You deserve it. My Mother is gone now. Don't give up. Hugs, xx
ReplyDeleteWhat lovely rainbow photos! Don't ever give up on your dreams... Hoping you'll make a full recovery and be able to visit your mother whenever you wish.
ReplyDeleteI have catched up with ypur blog. I'm so sorry you're in a "place" now where you do't want to be, being dependent on others for some things. It's hard. I can relate.
ReplyDeleteIf only I lived nearby.., I could do practical things. But keep on dreaming, dreaming gives pleasure. And your photo's are beautiful, that rainbow. you live in such a beautiful place. Lieve groetjes, Gerda
You must make it a reality and not a dream to see your Mum, as you are blessed that she is still alive to visit. What about travel by train, hope you manage to sort out a visit.
ReplyDeleteSuch a stunning double rainbow - what a rare treat to see the entire arch like that.
ReplyDeleteYes, I know what it's like to stop dreaming - sometimes it's just easier that way. Fewer dreams mean fewer disappointments. So I won't tell you to keep dreaming. I think it's better to stay as thankful as possible whenever possible (though sometimes it's very hard to do, I know); encourage the worthy dreams of others; and just keep on keeping on as best you can to the glory of God.
I do hope you'll be able to visit your Mum. If your daughter can't take you, is there anyone from church who would be willing to serve in this way?
Hang in there, Joan. You're not alone. And thank you for sharing so much beauty with all of us who are your friends.
I've never seen a rainbow like that before. What a glorious sight. I know it's hard when you don't have the mobility you used to. I would feel the exact same way. When I sprained my ankle and it took 5 months to heal, there were times I thought I would never walk properly again. Healing takes time. And whatever you have to do, I'm sure you will find a way to see your mom ... or vice versa. Take care of yourself. Tammy
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your beautiful rainbows and your very natural concerns with us, Joan.
ReplyDeleteAs you can see from all the responses above you have struck a chord with many of us. I am comforted and encouraged as I recognize the common threads of joy and sorrow that weave through our lives and draw us together across the miles. In August 2009, my husband of 38 years died and several months later his father died. My mother-in-law is also 92 and not well. It is a 12 hour drive from here to visit her and I have only been able to go about twice a year. Since my husband's death I have felt adrift about my dreams...but now that you have spurred my thinking I realize one of my life dreams has remained steady. I want to live in Love which I believe is attainable no matter what my circumstances may be. Thanks for helping me to realize that. I am asking the Lord to encourage you in your circumstances and help you to realize your dreams as well :) xx from Gracie
A dream is a wish your heart makes ! Isn't it grand when they come true ? Sometimes it's just takes a little time. Hope u see your mom soon , never stop dreaming or holding to hope !
ReplyDeletePS : beautiful pix , what a wonderful place you live ! How blessed to have such great scenery.
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