I know that my Title is 'Pink'
and this is a blue flower.
I just wanted to share my thoughts
on the fact that
we determine what is going to happen
or we think...
by a word or chance remark
perhaps go on our own bunny trail.....
we get thrown
and question why ...what..?
I've been unable to spend time in the garden
as I would like........
as I looked out of the sun room window....
I realised that practically all the plants
in my patio garden
The old pergola
is showing a lot of signs of age
(like me....I sigh)
and the winter storms
have pushed it over at a frightening degree!
I do love to look out and see the flowers
it just brightens up the day!
To get back to expectations...
how hard do you find it
to change the train of thought that
a word or an incident starts off..
For me...something can trigger
a train of thought
that might be nothing like the other person intended
as they started to speak...
but I ...
have gone off on a totally different track
and it can be hard then
to see what the other person meant!
My physio said that the back pain..
may never get better....
and I was immediately
going back down the tunnel of despair.
He said we won't know for another 12-18 months
how bad....or good....
it is going to end up!
"Why the fusion of the 4 vertebra then?"
He said that
the collapse of my vertebra
could have got so bad
that I might have ended up in a wheelchair
I immediately latched onto the negative
and started down the winding trail..
there's a lot of positive
in what he says..
and I have to relearn
to pick up the positive and stand on that!
Talking of expectations ...
and looking at things in certain ways...
The flowers I have shown have all been
whilst I have been standing with my back to the house
looking at the patio....
When I turn around 180*s.....
look what I can see...
While I had been thinking all is pink...
when I changed direction...
there was blue!
this little agapanthus
is very special to me as...
when my mother and I went to Madeira
it must be nearly 20 years ago...
we went on a trip right up into the mountains..
and there were farmers selling the plants.
Mum and I bought a few...
I gave some to my daughters...
and planted some...
in my garden.
They became overgrown with weeds and brambles
and I thought I'd lost them...
a couple of years ago..
hubby was clearing the area for his new tool shed
when he said....
"This is a strange weed"
I couldn't believe it...and rushed to put it in a pot...
where it's stayed until...
a couple of weeks ago I saw signs
that it was going to flower..
there's a lesson for me there....
to not hear the beginning
without hearing the end....
not to go down the same old road...but....
to turn right around and look for...
the signs of hope and change...
that perhaps I will be able to regain
some of my old life...
some of the things..
that I used to do and enjoy before!
Sorry about all of this..
but it spoke so powerfully to me!
I couldn't finish without showing you
what happened last week..
as you know
I planted all the trees and shrubs etc
when we built our house.
These last few years
I have been unable to do any weeding etc
and it has really upset me
especially this big border by the wall.
a team of young people from a church in Aberystwyth
came to our area for a week...
to hold tent meetings
for the community
and they also
offered to help weed gardens of those who were having difficulty in doing
all sorts of other hard to do jobs!
I so wish I had taken 'before' pictures
perhaps from the mounds of weeds
you'll get the idea!!??
I am just so grateful to them....
It has really cheered me up....
the other afternoon.....
I was so busy looking at my lovely new border
I nearly drove into the wall of the house!
What a great way
of showing God's love...
through serving people without expecting
anything more than thanks!
The other good thing is
that part of the garden has been tidied up
to celebrate my mother's visit.
She is hoping to come at the beginning of August
to celebrate her 94th birthday
with the family in Wales
She is much fitter than I am
so I expect
I will be able to twist her arm
to do a guest post
as she has done these last couple of years!
Perhaps if you ask nicely......
(She reads my blog)
so you can ask her yourself
Thanks for allowing me to take you
around the ideas that seem to be filling my thoughts!